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Chapter 30:
[ March 31, 2003 ++ 1:31 a.m. ]

This time I wish I could scream out every thought bubble into words for you, and you would all hear me. and you would all understand me, becuase I would scream out bubbles into the way your mind thinks. And you would hear me, and you would feel me, and see me. And you would just fucking understand me. So you could tell me what to do, or what this is, becuase I just don't have the energy to do it myself.

I'm scared.

All I want to do is be inside of you. Peal your skin open, and tuck myself under. Be a part of you. Pick every worry, every fear out of your brain with my fingers, and find a solution to every problem. Kiss your eyelids, and share the same air you breathe in. Lick every tear from your cheak, and tell you every single thing I taste. I wish I could just say we are something big, like the stars, so that I could feel a little more secure with where ever this is going. I hate it how, you wont even know I'm talking about you when you read this. And how I"ll just ignore it, and not tell you when you're right in front of me, becuase I'm scared, and I just don't have the energy to do it.

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