And today was a long day.

And when I was druged, and had those five minute naps that seemed to be hour naps, I was thinking about you. but every time I looked at the clock when I opend my eyes again, It had only been five minutes. and It just kept happening. I kept falling asleep and then waking up every five minutes. and I thought about you like ten times today. and I fucking hate you. I"ll love you again tomorrow. But today I fucking hate you. Becuase I realized how messed up this whole thing is. The peramedic asked me what I was going to do with my life, and I decided to tell him I'm becoming a photo journalist. And when I was druged, I thought about my escapade to Brazil with you, Or the sex on the beach with him, when I wear my flowered dress,and he wears his tie and rolled up pants. I thought about time. And how much we've fucked up evolution, becuase today there's a remedy for everything. I thought about what would make me content right now. I thought about all of it.